Staying Free
Im at day 10 smoke free, feeling good but I have moments of wanting which made me dream up the following. Can anyone relate to this scenario
There is a fence line, you have been walking along this fence line for 25years or so. On one side of the fence line everything is normal, on your side of the fence line you know something isn't right, everything feels normal but not quiet, you find out one day that on your side of the fence that the air is diminishing, slowly running out and eventually you will suffocate and die due to lack of oxygen. But you get rewarded for being there so you don't care a whole lot and decide your happy to stay there thinking it would be to hard to escape to the other side where the air is plentiful. Deep down know if only you could escape how pleased you would be.
You would like to find a hole in this fence and escape but there are none as you continue to walk for years and years and decades.
Then one day you see a hole in the fence barely large enough for you to squeeze through. You decide to go for it, you try to fit in the hole, struggling for days to fit, you get half way, you struggle more and more with all your might and more and more then finally and suddenly you get through. you realize your free!! you cant believe it!! You start to run like your running for your life!! Your so Happy!!
After a while you slow down running, you come to a stop you turn around and look back at the hole you escaped from, you get a strange feeling, its a horrible sensation, you realize you want to go back, but why? Why!!! If you go back you will Die!! You know you would have to be crazy, out of your mind to go back but this terrible urge its strong and its pulling you back!! you know you can fight this force or let it take you back.
If you go back through the hole it will close behind you for good and you can get the reward and can feel good but only for a short amount of time then continue to walk this fence line for God knows how long until you find another hole knowing all along that your running out of air, running out of time.. you know you have been cheated once again..
