Sneaky little sucker....

Day 59 and interesting I have cut down on the Champix to one a day, was two, and I have had some 'moments'. I can just be behaving myself, walking down the street in my lunch break, minding my own business and BAM, I get this urge to have a smoke. A little evil thought twists it's way into my brain doing the whole - 'mmm wouldn't that be nice.' Well, this is where I get my donkey on ( I am known for my stubbornness) and push the damn thought out of my mind and mentally list all the good things now I'm a non smoker.

My brain is sabotaging me!

I'm thinking this is from me dropping to the one tablet and although its very unwelcome, it's also amazing that the nicotine addiction is so strong that it keeps giving it 'one last try'. (I believe this 'one last try'will keep popping up for many many months or years to come)

Overall I'm feeling good and can stand around smokers and be ok, no want to have any whatsoever but at times it sneaks up and bites me in the butt! It's when I least expect it. In saying that I'm now hypervigilant and I say to myself 'hey addiction, you there? come on, bring it on, show me what u got!' Funny how when I'm ready for it its suspiciously absent!

Hope your all doing well and staying strong! Keep smiling..