be strong, be proud, be a non smoker!

I have tried many times to quit smoking, but this time feels different. People have said to me in the past "you'll quit when you're ready". This use to really peeve me off because I believed I was ready for the past 10 years. Hated smoking. Embarrassed by the smell. Went through a pregnancy 3 years ago and hated myself the whole time. Breast fed my little Bub but honestly, couldn't wait till he'd hurry up and finish so I could have a smoke. Managed to quit for 3 months around this time, but every hour, every day would think about smoking. Not any more. I have never been so happy, calm or relaxed. Day 8 now and so proud of myself. Haven't even felt withdrawals. Don't get me wrong, I know I've been here before and failed, but I don't recall finding it so easy. I'm scared I'll wake up and be clawing for a smoke. Worst thing is,I am eating 3 times as much. Really need to get that under control. It's honestly not a smoke that I'm thinking of every hour but what else can I eat ha ha. Not too concerned. I'll deal with the weight gain shortly. Just never want to smoke again, never want to kiss my Bub with that horrible poison on me, never want to get in a lift and hold my breath (as if that makes a difference) never want to despise myself. And, I never will!!! I am a non smoker. I would much prefer to think about smoking 10 times a day then think about quitting 10 times a day. Either way, I have that thing in my head shouting at me. Might as well be the good side for a change. Bring on the next challenge! Good luck everyone and thanks for listening to me rant. On a final note, I've had a way too many drinks and STILL haven't felt like a smoke. Yay for me.