Another shocker
I know our medical system in Australia is brilliant in comparison to some other countries but I was very frustrated and tested to my limits with it today. The urge (exceptionally humongous need) to smoke hit me so many times today I lost count. We drive over an hour to wait in uncomfortable chairs for 9.5 hours for surgery (he's finally gone off to theatre), a rude man stole the park I had obviously been waiting for ( I had already been around 3 blocks of the hospital) I dont get paid for my day off AND my ex husband turns up at the hospital.. NEED a smoke much? I was crying at times, gritting my teeth, to scared to speak at times because I was worried what would come out of my mouth... I have not smoked, I will not smoke but God I wanted too.
Sorry about the rant, it was a very trying, stressful day and others cannot appreciate how hard it is to get through without a smoke.
Thank you all for your comments on the previous post, I read them today whilst in my 'panic' moments..
if you didn't smoke through all that you did great and it does make us stronger I think to keep going, doing the hard yards makes it harder to smoke because we worked so hard to stay stopped. it makes us want to stay stopped even more I think.
so well done !!
IC
Hi sweetheart wow you did so well not giving in so very very proud of you and I totally agree with IC doing it tough makes you more determined not to smoke keep up the great work
Well done, Cranky, it's those times that show you just how strong you and that you will succeed. You may even look back at that day and laugh about the series of unfortunate events. Keep your chin up and stay strong. Keep ranting, it's good for the soul.