It came unexpectedly

Hi everyone, so I'm 104 days smoke free. Yay for me and I have to confess I haven't found it particularly hard, I know that I'm pone of the lucky ones. There have been days, during the last 104, that I felt as though I'd lost something but nothing like the cravings I've read about here. I counted myself very lucky. Then on Saturday evening, home alone, I had this almost overwhelming urge to go and smoke a cigarette. I'm not talking a bit of a "well, I probably could have a smoke" and then a few seconds later the thought is gone. I'm talking full on, GET ME A CIGARETTE kind of craving. It lasted for about 30 minutes. There were none in the house and I'd had two glasses of wine so was unfit to drive, as we live in a village there's no way to get to a shop without transport, thank goodness. It was such a shock that it totally flummoxed me and left me feeling as though I'd been punched in the stomach. How can this suddenly have happened? The following day, I was fine. I didn't even think about having a cigarette. The day after I remembered I'd had a terrible craving but even with others smoking around me I didn't want one.

The feelings came unexpectedly and I was as close as I have been to folding. Perhaps it's that I had had it easy that the big craving hit harder as I was unprepared for these feelings.

I'm telling you because I want you to know that part of not smoking was the thought of coming on here and having to admit that I'd smoked. There would have been no catalyst, no big reason. But I didn't cave in, I kept strong and I am still a non-smoker.

Apologies for wittering on and thanks for reading to the end.