How to keep going?
I am feeling so utterly hopeless about my life ,right now and I wonder if I can stay off the cigarettes, feeling like this, when I'm thinking what's the point anymore? I am so tired of fighting my past, the residue of traumas, my mental health, my feelings and life. I haven't had a cigarette in 75 days and I don't think I really want to, because I know it's not going to change one Damn thing for the better and that actually sux too? I just want all the pain to go away, and smoking cigarettes just causes more pain ,with a moment's distraction😔
yeah well if its any consolation its not been a bed of roses for me and I mean a bed without the steams.
I have gotten sicker or maybe it was coming anyway after all that's why I stopped.
do what ever it is you need to do to deal with the sh$t I know it never goes away and some days it feels like the load is to heavy and I think well *&%$ it all anyway I will smoke and then something stops me as it has you.
the only thing I do is really enjoy the times when its not such a big load and do things I enjoy :)
guess what I am saying is you are not alone and yeah I understand some times its just too hard... and it is most people cant deal with PTSD etc.. and they are drugged out drunk smoking or dead and that's really sad..
but we are the fighters who take every day and say I am going to do my best today in others eyes it might seem p$$$ poor effort but give them a go and they will not even come close to doing what we are so keep going Miss Lizzy we have too its our way of saying NO !!
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I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling that way. If it is really severe maybe consider seeing a doctor or getting a refferal from your doctor for free physcology sessions if you are in Australia you can get up to 6 at the time. Exercise always helps, if you are starting to feel down maybe consider going to a walk or trying yoga. Talking to people and social groups can help. There is no point in smoking as you said, it will probably just add anxiety.
Miss lizzy, I feel for you, I wish I could do more. but we are hear to listen so keep posting some times just saying what you are feeling at the time can help at least i hope it will