25 Days Quit
Day 25 smoke free after 30 years of smoking and I was so proud of myself until... I slipped up today and I'm so disappointed & angry with myself. I woke up feeling emotional, very tired, sad, lost and couldn't stop crying. I fought the urge as long as I could & today I was not strong enough. I gave in and had 2 puffs & threw the cigarette out. Not proud of what I did but I will not give up it's just a slip up. I'm sure all this weird symptoms & emotions will stop soon - I know I'm not loosing my mind.
Thank you for all so very much for your posts and for sharing your experiences and advice the have kept me going for the past 25 days. It's good to know I am not alone in this.
Goodluck everyone and we can do this:)
The tricks this addiction plays on your mind is terrible. Don't be easy on yourself but these things do happen. You have shown a lot of strength by only having two puffs and throwing it away again. You haven't lost, you've done incredibly well and next time you feel that way hopefully you will be able to recognise it and beat it better. Don't forget your quitting for a better future. You will beat it and feel better in time. Xx
Hi Jano, I find that emotional roller coaster the hardest part of the journey. When we are sad and tired and emotionally taped out i think we just want to reach for a smoke as somehow it will 'miraculously' make everything better. It is what we know best. Having a plan in place for when these moments happen is the best thing you can do for yourself.
Don't stress to much, you're still winning. You don't need a new quit day, just keep pushing on. Learn from what happened and be better for it! Good luck
Thank you all for your support - I feel so much better today - the only way is up!!!
Nano, don't be too hard on yourself. It was a very small hiccup on a very long,arduous journey, I felt so very sad for you when I read that you slipped up, but omg 2 puffs, I am so proud of you for being honest with yourself and us, it would have been easy to say nothing, so just smile, take a big deep breath, dust yourself off, and keep going down the road, view what happened as a small bandaid on your knee, which you scraped slightly when you slipped over. You don't need a new start date, after all a runner doesn't go back to the starting line if they trip and fall. Big hug Hun
Nano, there is so much good advice and support above that I just wanted to add my hugs to Chezzel's. You've done amazingly well and you don't need anyone else to berate you, you seem to have done that all on your own. Stand still for a moment, take a nice deep breath in and out then smile to yourself. You're winning this war against nicotine. Just take one day at a time. You will become emotional again but you will be better prepared next time. Take extra good care of yourself.
that's how the addiction cycle works it uses shame to keep the cycle going its tricky but when we know what we are dealing with it can bring perspective.
you are not a bad person for smoking and its ok to feel what you feel and its also ok to not smoke.
I understand how it feels I am an addict too !!
IC
Hi NeilR, For me the emotions & sadness lasted around 2 months. It was like a rollercoaster, feeling great one minute & then boom start crying at a drop of a hat. I'm at 98 days now & I can tell you all the emotions, cravings & craziness have stopped. It does get better and easier and it's all worth it. Take it one day at a time and don't give up & don't give in. Goodluck.