Dreams

Day 113.

I keep having this recurring dream where I am smoking. It's not always the exact time/place/circumstance but it's always me smoking for a bit (and it's always indoors, I NEVER smoked indoors), realising I shouldn't be smoking because I've quit and then saying "it's okay" because I've been so good in my quit attempt so far. Eventually in the dream someone comes in and I have to hide it from them. In all of the dreams I haven't been caught, until today when I was caught by a colleague who then proceeded to tell me how disappointed they were. 

I'd like to think todays dream was my subconscious' way of reminding me that I have other people invested in my quit attempt, not just me. I'm not the only one who is affected if I go back to smoking and I have a responsibility to them as well to remain quit. I also think that's why my quit attempt has been so successful so far. 

I feel like accountability is an important part in this process and having people who will hold you accountable for your actions is a great motivator to ensure you remain quit.