105 days

I have 105 days smoke free. I used nicotine lozenges the first 84 days, a lot at first and little at the end. It was not much of a jump to get off the nicotine completely except on my head. I feel like the last 3 weeks that the reality of not smoking has been setting in. It is not this huge battle in the front of my mind anymore. The battle is more subtle. I feel like a different person. More real maybe? I don't take grief from others like I used to and feel like I am more honest with myself. The depth of the change is amazing. I did not know how deep the addiction was until trying to defeat it. I had 30 years of smoking one and a half packs a day. I used it for a reward for getting a task done, as an escape from bad feelings, and to escape boredom. I'm planning to keep hanging in there one day at a time and see where this takes me. I feel good in my mind and body but I still could go back to smoking really easy. This website helps me a lot because others understand what I am going through. Thanks