what a journey..

I quit for 4 months and felt great!! Then i thiught i can hve the odd cig here and there. Well that was one huge mistake. I fell back into the routine and addiction quit fast. It didnt take long before i began smoking like i always had. All along ive thought i dont miss smoking. Now that i started again i kept thinking i dont enjoy it why did i start again?!

I successfully encouraged my dad and hes quit! He quit on the 23rd of nov and ironically i fell pregnant on the same day ( i always worried he wouldnt be arpund to meet his grandchild ) so i found the timing very ironic!

So I've been smoking again since jan.. 4 months. I wiuld be celebrating 8 months smoke free but instead i look back and think i wasted 4 months smoking. Yesturday my partner took my cigarettes and lighter without me knowing and hid them. I tols him it wasnt very suttle but he has a good point and he is right!. So today is day two. I feel like i need one last cig to say goodbye to the old habit. But i really need to stay on track this time. For my family.