day 37
Day 38 nearly over, it is strange how even after this amount of time the urge to smoke at certain times is really strong. I don't crave a cigarette it is just a memory, that after doing such and such you have a cigarette. Then you have find something else to do, it is getting better and I am getting stronger but I wonder if it is like when you go on a diet you are forever going to have to watch yourself every day for the rest of your life. Then I get nervous and wonder, am I ever really going to be free or should I just give in now. Just feeling sorry for myself, tomorrow is another day
I think food is a bit different as in we need it or we die , smoking we do not need to live :)
that's also true I haven't quit forever just for today anyone can do that right?? just don't have a smoke today :) happens to be always today and I do not wish to ever smoke again but all I can do is today and its nearly over and I haven't had a smoke day 23, pretty sure it gets easier after all its just a plant how much power does it really have?? absolutely zero if I don't put it in my body, so the problem is in my head and well lucky I don't have a glass head and everyone could see what was going on in there :)
so dealing with the thoughts about the smoking is important you havnt had one for 40 days and you are still alive so you do not need it to live its just the lies in our minds we have to deal with.
I guess we all work out the best way to do that :)
IC
All you need is faith, trust and a little bit of pixie dust!!! well so peter pan says but the point applies if you beleive it can happen it will. Picture yourself free for the rest of you life and you will be...
Hi Storm
You have been an inspiration in my first days. Thank you. You are doing so well.
I think all of us need to acknowledge that it is a lifetime journey to not smoke.
I am not ready to do that yet ..one day at a time.
I know it will get better - but for now that is how it is.
Don't give in after all this time. It is not worth it. Says me who is a newbie.
My best to you.xx