day 23

I was chatting with a mate the other night who is doing his best to stop and more for my own hearing said, life around me wont change, I have to change, just cause I stopped smoking doesn't mean everyone is now my cheer squad, in fact they seem even more apt at testing me LOL.

I also said to him something will come up when I stop, any addiction is covering some thing up in my character I may not like, he said no just ignore it, well I think if I just ignore it I will smoke again, don't like labels but just for the purpose of this exercise my OCD has really ramped up like if I start some project it drives me nutts unless I get it perfect in my mind, I could see how that would drive others around me bonkas , I am single so its not so bad.

but I think if I need to it may help to talk about it or even share about it on here, ring lifeline, not for them to fix it just to chat, I do remind them I don't need fixing just need a chat. see a consoler etc.. just some thoughts going on in my head about how to tackle life smoke free. sure not telling you what to do just seemed like a good place to share my thoughts.

well done on the 24 days , that's no mean feet , we need to remember its a journey there is a start point but enjoying the journey is the end point, scary and exciting all at the same time !!

well done!!

IC