It's a forever journey

184 days since my last ciggie, Do I miss it? Yes sometimes but only for a few seconds then my brain kicks in and reminds I am a non smoker. Was it difficult? You betcha, couldn't sleep (withdrawals),didn't know what to do with my time with constant reminders of Coffee = ciggie bit of housework = gee I'm good let's reward myself with a ciggie, I am stressed today= have a smoke or 2,whatever,who cares? I am so frustrated,sad,crying = I miss my friend,backbone, comfort stick………….but………I now keep busy, I have changed my (smoking ) habits like Coffee whilst checking my emails,I have cleaned many a cupboard with so much gusto I almost forgot about the ciggies………….no I have forgotten as to "why" I smoked. I no longer stink. I no longer have to find a place when out to smoke. No checking that " I have enough" to last. Life is different,It's better. The part that really upsets me is I have saved $3,460.00. That makes me very angry. What a waste!!!!!!!!!

To all of you brave people, it is not easy,you feel confused,sad, upset

and tell yourself ( well I did) you can't do it, you're going to fail, why bother? well I can and I have and I will continue to not be tempted ever again. The cost is too high, it is hard but so worth it. hang in there everyone