Slipped Up
Hi everyone I have to be honest with everyone I just had a dart.in the midst of what has been a shocker of a few weeks. I just pinched one of my daughters cigarettes and smoked it. My head is spinning I feel like I'm going to throw up and the taste in my mouth is making me gark . Talk about blerrrr and yuk. Anyway im disappointed but the way I feel I won't be lighting up another one. Today is 118 which is really sad. This in no way takes away from resolve to continue. I just couldn't lie. I will continue my journey and I hope this strengthens my resolve. I'm sorry to everyone that was looking up to me for inspiration. I hope everyone continues on their journey. I will continue my journey. Xx
Hi Nannette. You seem so sad. Sorry to hear you caved in. But it was only one and we could all pretend you were inhaling someone else's second hand smoke. (After all, it was not even your cigarette.) Just as well it was not a good experience. If you can forgive yourself and forget this slight erring then so can the rest of us. Just carry on counting the smoke free days. Your honesty is appreciated and you are still an inspiration.
Dear Nannette
Be Kind to yourself. Day 118 is awesome. We will all get there! A slipup is just a move on this journey.
Nannette, you remain my inspiration. You have let no-one down here - not even yourself. We are human. We are all travelling on this extraordinarily challenging journey and we are trying to muddle along together as best we can. You are still at day 118 and we are still going to cheer at day 122 because you have not only overcome immense hurdles yourself, you have also stood by the side and cheered the rest of us on.
I know it sounds trite but if this was easy we would all have succeeded way before now.
You have the biggest hug in the world from me and I am also loaning you my leprachaun for the next few days. You gave him to me when the going got tough and that meant a lot so you get him back for a while.
Take care and remember what you have achieved.
Dear Nanette
Love your honesty. Don't put pressure on yourself - you are amazing and at just 24 hours smokefree I am in awe of you. I guess just the start, but your post tells us newbies to always be aware. Thank you for sharing your journey. And don't beat yourself up- you are amazing in what have already achieved. I hope I can do the same. In the days ahead. My bestxx
Hi Nannette. Sorry to hear that you've had a rugged few weeks. Thanks for posting that you slipped up and it tasted horrible. I often think that I'd really love a smoke but blerr and yuk are what I'll keep in mind. See you're still inspiring. Remember every hiccup makes you stronger and we all are proud of you. Xxx
Hi Nannette yes you still are an inspiration to us here! You have given us so much good advice and this is just further advice! It helps me knowing that if I do want to try one (which I do most days when I'm stressed) it won't be worth it! So what you have done has helped us to see its just not worth it. Please stay proud of yourself as all your supporters still are of you xxx
Whoa, Last time I started smoking was after "just one" which was after 10 years of being smoke free which goes to show the pulling power this crazy MONSTER has...Don't fall for that trick again as we all know on this site you have the strength to nail this more than most....Im sure you will tackle what lies ahead with guttso and continue leading the way to FREEDOM....P.S don't stress as long as your dart didn't hit the bullseye its all good :)
Well, Nannette, tha makes two of us.....I had a shocker of a few weeks, Last night topped it all off and I had a smoke....Loved it, but hated it......I am almost on a century!
To everyone who took the time to post thankyou. I'm so appreciative of your lovely kind words and words of encouragement.sometimes it would be nice to be super human rather than human and then when those situations arise and you think how much can a koala bear, we would simply be able to rise above it and get on with it..my eldest daughter was hospitalised over the weekend with complications arising from her Type 1 diabetes and it just flawed me as to how fragile life can be. She is ok now but it could have very easily been a different story. Huge hugs to all of you. Thankyou xxx
Nanette, so nice to know that you are only human and like every one else have their frailties. But how great that you are honest with yourself, you will be an inspiration to the rest of us for recognising that you stuffed up hang in there and keep counting the days
Hi Nannette, I hope that your daughter is recovering well and as speedily as possible. You are going to be just fine. Actually, you are already more than fine. I walked past my neighbour's apartment tonight and the corridor stunk of cigarettes - a smell that I never noticed when I was smoking. Even though I didn't like the smell it lit up that neural pathway which used to require a nicotine hit 25 times a day. Shocking habit we are all battling.
Sending you lots of Travolta jiving and Pharrell happiness. I am prescribing that you play those songs really loud at least once a day for the next little while. Take good care of yourself.
hey Nanette, thanks for posting. I'm sorry to hear about your daughter. I know i would have done the same..but you know what..It;s okay.Just keep on doing what you are doing,you have so been so amazing in your positivity and support of people here,here's some back. sending you huge hugs,and you never know,the boys might do the business against the All Blacks on saturday! xx
Nannette, my younger son was diagnosed with HIV....it is terrible to see our children suffer, both mentally and physically. I am glad that medications are good nowadays.
Hey Nannette, I am thinking of you and hoping that you are going to celebrate a third of the way through the first year. We're all human and life throws curve balls but being on Team Determined (with you as the captain) is a great place to be. Pup, Ponting et al were all great captains because they were first and foremost ordinary human beings and who in their humanity inspired the rest of us. Thinking of you.
Hey nanette - how you going with the slip up - hope you got back up and at them - those bloody darts - Please come back and give us an update - we miss you and your livley posts.. :)