Dreaming

I wanted to share the strange experience I have had in the last 24 hours. I have been very lucky as none of my friends smoke so I have not had that extra temptation a lot of you have had. Yesterday, I went to a party and there were heaps of people smoking and it was the first time I had to talk, al length, with people who were actively smoking. That seemed to go well and that topped off a weekend of relative peace.

Last night, I dreamt so vividly (thank you Zyban) that I had smoked four cigarettes. I even dreamt that I had come on to this site to tell you all that I had smoked. I woke up relieved to know I had not smoked but today, ALL DAY, I have had the strongest, most insistent cravings ... just like the first few days of quitting. It reminded me of what a psychological addiction this is. I didn't need to smoke (just dreamt it) to have the symptoms of a relapse. It is the neural pathways and not the nicotine which is playing with my brain. Never forget, we are fighting a formidable enemy here and one which does not give in easily. What we do know, thanks to the good people here, is that we are more than capable of beating that enemy.

Am hoping a quiet night will still my pathways!