Day 54
I am seriously not trying to compete with myself but today was actually worse than yesterday which was marginally worse than the day before. Work seems to have gone pear-shaped and, although part of me thinks it is the great tobacco ogre in the sky trying to lure me back, I know these challenges are part of life and I have to find a way of coping without bursting into tears (not particularly dignified at my age).
A friend who has been through all of this some years ago told me today that I was changing and becoming a different person. Perhaps the grief is saying good-bye to the old person which, let's face it, is the person I wanted to farewell. All I know is that I am going to fight with all my strength to remain smoke-free and hope that, in doing so, I will become stronger.
Thanks to Nannette, I have the Bee Gees blasting in my flat and I am feeling happier than I have all week!
Good luck to everyone over the weekend.
Nicotine is no longer a friend and throughout life we add and prune friendships. Some, like nicotine are selfish and only care about themselves, thus draining one of what is truly important. Turn your back on that friend and kick up your heels, knowing you have lost nothing! In fact you have gained something. That is self respect.
Well hello again Fullofhope. I can't believe you had another bad day caus yesterday sounded like an absolute shocker.So as bad as it was wanting a dart the urge was much stronger to Not have a dart. See i told you, you were Stubborn and strong. So Well done!!im still going to send you a Big hug for surviving what sounds like a shocker of a week.
I still sometimes get a super strong urge . But like you im just super determined to not go back and there is no way I would want to put myself through this wonderful experienced ever again as much as I have enjoyed heaps of people get on with living
Keep posting you are very strong surviving these last few days and I'm sure things will look better after a break over the weekend.
Each time you squash a craving sing your new STAYIN alive theme song. Gooooooooo girl xxxxx
You poor thing,it will pass,I'm telling myself the same thing!! Keep going you are helping everyone here by sharing so honestly xx
When I stopped smoking, I thought things were bad...but bad stuff is bad stuff and good stuff is good stuff, mediocre stuff is mediocre stuff. None of these situations are going to improve or get worse by having a cigarette. I found out a short while ago that my son is HIV positive....a cigarette is not going to improve or cure that situation. There is nothing I would like to do more than roll a smoke, but I stopped and I want to stay stopped.
Go for a swim. Wash it all away. Scream under water. Cry under water. Walk it out. Exercise. Shower. Moods come in phases. They pass.
