Day 23
It is just shy of Day 23 and I have not slept properly for a couple of nights and when I put on my usual trousers this morning they were way too tight. Couldn't the angel of rewarding those who give up a nasty habit at least make us feel fantastic about ourselves? That would be too easy, I suppose, and we would have all given up years ago.
Today should not have been tough but it was. Dad called first thing to say mum was not well and was struggling to breathe. The first thing I thought was 'I need a cigarette'. Then there was a tricky and stressful work situation which, in any other month in the last 35 years would have justified many ciggies to calm down. And then a work dinner - three and a half hours of smiling politely.
But I haven't given in and the reason is because I just tell myself "Today I cannot give in". Am pretty sure the rest of the week will be less challenging. I haven't been meditating and have to get back to that ASAP. I am figuring if we can meet these daily challenges we are going to conquer this beastly habit in the end.
Well done, just getting over having the next one is all we need to do.. good self-talk there - I am at the hourly stage still, but it seems to work..- just one more hour without a cigarette..
Hi Fullohope, sorry to hear your mum is not well I hope she gets better soon. Well done for hanging in there . I love your mantra"Today I cannot give in" Socialising is a bit tricky though ,because if some one is really boring you , you can't nick off for a dart anymore. Welcome to the world of smiling politely. You are going really well, you gotta hang in there as it does get easier and so worth it when you get around 50 days up.i know it probably doesn't feel like it ,but those fairies are in a holding pattern around you and circling , so it want be tooooo long before they wave their magic wands for you and you are over that horrible first bit.xxx
Thanks Nannette. I have missed you these last few days. I really hope that all is well with you as you have been such a generous champion and mentor on this site.