Self-destruction,Depression, Anxiety & No Way Back = ONLY FORWARD

Pardon my vulgarities and I did have to resubmit the obvious place where it occurred but I doubt there is a single person who truly embraces the negativity of what we're all going through with a fiddle-dee-dee attitude at first. And first is where we all start. You can do this. You simply have to. Right?

I smoked for 30 years.

I was never addicted to cigarettes.

I was dissatisfied.

Every one of you knows exactly what I'm talking about.

My poorly grammatized & slightly plagiarized thoughts as I sit just over a hundred days seeking more than prayer for my body's healthy return:

You crash land into fragility

Change your attitude

Drop all your self-destructive habits

About-face your addictions

Improve your diet

Accept your selfishness

Realize your life changes

Push for activity

Make your goals

Truly appreciate your friends & family and their forgiveness

Hold all you now know to be true as your very own holy

and be weepingly grateful

just to like yourself and be alive...

and still... you see depression through the window

in the parking lot doing those push-ups looking right at you and telling you "i don't feel like it"

What an astonishing jerk.

I'd tell him to bleep off but then he'd win.

Frankly, buddy, sing, shout, and leer all you want.

I understand you and you can have your way

but without me

now.