I'm embarassed to say...

I'm smoking my last few cigarettes because today is my quit date. I quit for two weeks of this month, but I succumbed to the anger, and stress. I feel quite hopeless, like what's the use of trying to quit? I'm so desperate that I'd sell my kidney for a quick fix, but the cigarettes already have my soul.

The point of the matter is, though. I have the support of everybody at the moment. My parents, grandparents, girlfriend, friends.

Everybody wants to see me quit smoking because they have all seen the negative effects of smoking. I even feel the guilt of smoking. My grandmother smoked and she passed away of cancer; my grandfather passed away of a heart attack, he was also a smoker.

So I wrote down the benefits and the negatives of quitting smoking. I made sure to have a plan for every negative aspect of quitting: exercise, calling my support group.

I will always keep in mind that it's important to see a doctor, because the doctor is the number one support that you can have while quitting.

With my support group, I've asked for sponsorship. I've asked if they are willing to offer rewards for reaching quitting milestones.

Most importantly, I'm communicating with this forum, because every smoker here knows the woes of smoking.

I'm tired of being captive to cigarettes. Many people have been transformed by spiritual experiences, and miracles, but I'm going to succeed with the support of everybody who loves me. Because nobody wants to see me pass away at an early age.

I'm going to make this day the day that I reclaim my life.

I'm not going to be a slave to a heavy tax, and the dark shadow of stigma.

Today is the day.