third time's the trick
I am now on my third major attempt to quit. I have quit twice before for 6 months each time, but took it up again due to massive weight gain and stress and panic attacks. I am determined to make this the last time. I hate myself for smoking, the cost involved, not just the money, but I am unemployed trying to raise 2 daughters and don't want to be continually caught in the smoking trap. I have been smoke free for 7 days now and am stressing to the max. It's so hard being alone on this journey. I'm alone in everything else too. I have no support network. My parents are dead, I have no friends, no co parent due to domestic violence. I'm so afraid. I am determined to stay smoke free but I feel like giving in so often. I am reaching out on this site for any help I can get. I've been a smoker since I was 13 years old and I am now 51!!
Congratulations. Well done. My umpteenth quit date is tomorrow at lunchtime. The worst is behind you. I am frightened about giving up and know all the logical reasons why it must be done.
All the best. One day at a time.
7 days off the cigs is brilliant!!! Good on you!!!
I really related to your story and mine is very, very, similar. I haven't quit the cigs yet, but I'm on Day 10 with Champix and I've managed to reduce my smoking by 50% - 75% most days. That's a HUGE win for me, and I'm giving myself a pat on the back for achieving that much so far. Ultimate goal is to quit, but I can only get there one day at a time and I'm pretty chuffed about how I'm doing on the Champix.
I was having a hard time yesterday (panic/anxiety/fear/anger) so I rang the quit-line for support. For me, it was a total waste of time and I will NEVER be doing that again. I rang Life-Line instead and they were absolutely terrific!!! For ANYONE feeling stressed, on the edge, or just desperately alone, please remember that Life-Line is there 24 hours a day/7 days a week.
You look like such a nice lady and I'm sure you've developed enormous strengths being on your own. But I get that it's hard at times and I understand being afraid. I wish you the very best on your journey.
pam x
I totally lost the plot yesterday and gave in. I bought a packet. I feel like a failure again. I will quit again and not let his slip up draw me back into the trap. I'm seeing a counsellor this afternoon. Thank you No longer a sucker and mail2pam, your encouragement means so much to me. Most of my life I feel like I'm invisible to others and you have burst that little bubble for me. Thank you so much xo
It's only a slip-up and you're definitely NOT a failure! So glad you're seeing a counsellor. I also see a counsellor and it really helps. It did take me a while to find the right one, but once I did I never looked back. I couldn't have started this journey without the support of both my GP & my counsellor.
pam xo