So many attempts
I have tried to quit so many times but just can't seem to stop for good. One of the problems I have is I usually gain about 5 kilos everytime I stop.I am also a bit of an insomniac and usually smoke more at this time of the night, during the day I can usually manage to stay busy enough to not smoke. I hope this is the last and final time I actually quit, for both myself and my family!
Hi surf61, glad your wanting to join us and quit for good. This is my 9th day smoke free & seems to be the easiest day so far. Just like you I've tried many times & failed. This time seems different though, I actually really want to & need to for my health, my kids & my bank account. At 42 I don't have time to mess around any longer, that's it for me, no matter what. Just keep plodding along, read the comments and stories here, you will relate to some and be inspired by others. Write your own stories & experiences & frustrations, even if no-one happens to comment that day at least your getting your feelings out there and out of your mind. Trust me - even just on day 9 - I feel terrific & so happy to be a non-smoker again!! It's a whole new cleaner world & YOU too can do it. I for one will be here to support you! We can do it.
Was just thinking, don't worry about the kilos, smoking is the main issue here & you can deal with the weight later, 5 kilos is not much to lose. Was also thinking - have you thought that maybe your insomnia might actually be triggered either partially or totally by smoking, if your body is use to it at that time each night. I know I use to stay up for hours after the kids went to bed unable to sleep, stressing about my problems. I dealt with it by drinking and smoking to forget & to put myself to sleep! Part of the reason I did this also was because I was trying to delay the next day coming, I didn't want to face another day, I also had nightmares so drank to stop them. Sometimes 10 or 15 in one single night but none or just 1 during the day! Something to think about. Since I haven't been smoking I'm in bed reading by at least 9 and asleep by 10 if not before. Each night has been restful and having dreams again, Good Dreams & wake up early and refreshed, ready for my walk. Things have changed dramatically for me...and they will for you too. Good luck.
Wow, i think we have a similar thought pattern! I read your story last night Bronte and felt for you. The struggle for your kids, actually hating smoking and the waste that go's with it. Drinking seems to go along with the smoking doesn't it! My kids are grown up now but they still hate me smoking, I also have the most gorgeous Grandaughter who Is so worth not smoking for. I hope this time is different for you and for me, you inspire me, maybe if I can do it you can do it and vise versa. The other thing I can relate to is you saying just keep plodding, that was my fathers mantra," just keep plodding love," is what he would always say to me when I was going through tough times! The insomnia is partly because of the smoking, it is like a pattern, when the kids were young I would wait for them to go to sleep before sitting up smoking, yuk! So yes I think I have trained myself to not sleep because of the smoking! Thanks so much for sharing your story, lets both hang tough!
So glad to be a bit of inspiration for you. Yes, we will both hang tough and plod, plod, plod along!
A funny co-incidence I happen to use those words in my comment for you. Good luck.
Thanks Bronte! This is the tough part of the day for me, I may only have a couple of cigarettes but this time of the night is when I start to think about them calling calling. I cleaned the house from top to bottom today also got rid of everything from my patio/smoking area, no lighters, ashtrays or anything else to remind me.I also forced myself to sit out there and enjoy a bit of sunshine without smoking! I haven't told my family I have quit again either, so sick of them telling me i'll never be able to quit! So for now I'm going to just try and go cold turkey, i'm hanging tough!!!!!
Well done. See, there is enjoyment in just sitting without a cigarette. I've done the same, it's great not having dirty ashtrays around. You'll just have to prove the family wrong, you can quit.