Back on track with new strategies & dealing with the evil voice

Nearly went off the rails yesterday but got to bed with my book quick smart so I wouldn't have to think about it anymore. So, another 'feeling fresh' morning is always a good start. Whilst on my morning walk came up with a little strategy as only on day 6 & having that 1 year goal in mind seems rather overwhelming - arghh.. sooo long to go. Then I thought, well it's only 6 days but that's nearly a week, so that's good isn't it. If I can just go by weekly goals instead of thinking of 365 days it doesn't seem so overwhelming. So I've made it to week 1 day 6, nearly there...and if I can make that then I can surely do it again & make it to week 2 day 6 can't I and so on and so fourth. Seems much more doable and I've then got a specific 'short' goal & a target to reach. Anyway, that's my plan so far. I guess I should give myself a reward at the end of each week but I don't know what yet? There's that horrible voice that keeps coming back to me like some nasty little evil being, that's not even me, it says, what are you even putting yourself through this for, you know you can't do it & once again you'll be back where you started so what's the point, you may aswell just stop trying now coz you know you'll go back to it eventually. What an awful thing to say to myself, I wouldn't say it to my friend so why would I say it to me, I just keep telling it to shut up, I'll show you I can do it, I'm not giving it any strength, the nasty little bugger! Wish it would leave me alone....