See "they" told me so!!!!!
I havent eaten soooo much in my life! Todays been one of those days. A long and horrible day. I know i have done the right thing, I am getting healthier I am finally able to breath and smell the roses. BUT!! I am missing it today, IT being the smoke. YUCK I cant even believe i said that but i am. I am so sad i dont know why well actually i might do. Maybe its because smoking was my identity for so many years. I started out as a rebellious teenager my parents are health freaks, major health freaks to put it in prospective they go to the gym every morning at 5am before work and of an afternoon run to the lookout and back. They do fitness for fun on the weekends like come on!!! So i smoked just to go against them oh and i thought it was cool, so cool my friends were all doing it and continued to smoke because i became addicted. See we have a great relationship I love my mum and dad but i am the sort of person who hates being told, "see i was right"or just in general being told what to do and this isnt a good mix when you are a teenager when the world is out to get you and no body is right except you. I knew about the world at 14 i was doing me and i didnt care. So now this is where i am i am fighting an addiction to something that will kill me if i dont win and its so hard even with a patch on ok so i am not craving the nicotine i am craving the habit, stuffed if i know why i seriously have no idea i saw people smoking this morning when i entered my office, where i have entered and not left because today i feel weak and dont need temptations even hubby dropped lunch off (lucky me), and i smiled and was so happy, so so happy that wasnt me then i sat at my desk and today thats all i have thought off. I want these thoughts to leave my mind i have had enough today. I need a dark room to curl up in and just close my eyes and dream of life after.
life after what? you have got the smokes beat. just don't replace cigarettes for food stay strong all the best.
I really like the way you put your thoughts and mindset into a post, it means that others can see how similar they are and hopefully it helps you beat the crazy thoughts.
It's ok, I have been where you are sooo many times just don't give in like I have in the past, it just ends up being a longer, harder journey. At times I have heard you be so strong, maybe you could re-read your previous posts to help you get back in those positive mind sets. Remember if it was easy there would not be too many smokers out there, you CAN DO IT. I'm with you 100%, keep fighting it will be worth it!
I will not give it I have come too far! Day 9 is all but over and it's been a long day! I haven't thought of a smoke since I posted this I went for a walk on my lunch break and came back feeling great! Tomorrow is another day and I'll be keeping positive and I'll be keeping on track for sure. I don't even want to smoke, no way!!!!
The food I have been eating has been really heathy nuts, carrot and celery sticks,pineapple, apple chips, a salad sandwich the worse thing I had today was one wafer biscuit but it was only because I had a bad day today because I never eat this much and guess what? Im currently sitting here thinking about what's for dinner lol
Hi Choosing life,
Stay strong, you are doing so so well, and are a massive support here on the site. We are all behind you, stay strong and breathe through the cravings. Allow yourself to feel angry , sad , it's all part of it. Massive change and you are coping extremely well in the fog. Looking back to why you started smoking is common I did the same and found it helpful, to see that I am now an adult and have outgrown the original reason to smoke. Use whatever comes your way every thought, feeling to push you onwards, you are stronger. 9 days is awesome, bet you thought nine days ago you would not be here? It's all new, everyday you will get stronger, you will beat this. Keep going one day at a time. I like your posts, you contribute valuable posts that help others. We are all behind you .