I'm proud and I'll smile

I wake up every morning and feel so happy, I'm determined to beat this addiction. I go to bed of a night and smile and smile that I fought the addiction and won that day. Yesterday we were sitting around camp and people were smoking everywhere, its one of those things that when you are experiencing something you see more of it. More smokers when you are quitting, pregnant women everywhere when you are trying to get pregnant, loving couples when you are single and you have to be strong to fight the cravings or the urges to scream because you want a baby or you are sick of feeling alone, you think you want that drag, that ONE drag even though you know you don't. People don't realise that every person you look at is experiencing/fighting something in their life. But it doesn't make you feel any better, when you are going through the journey of fighting an addiction you go through stages of I don't care, it's all about me and you can't see that people everywhere all around you have something in their life they are struggling with, most people just don't speak about it. Me on the other hand I tell everyone of my achievements and my struggles I am an open book and you'll know every thing about me. That's me, it's the way I deal with happenings in my world, it helps me process it all. On another note.. We are buying a cabin at our local dam. Only because we have given up the cigarettes, no more burning our money, our life away. We are living and I'm not ashamed to feel good about it an tell everyone.