I can't believe it's day 10

WEll I've not been keeping track of quit days but I just logged in and well it says ten days smoke free.. wow .. Well I'm still having little cravings to smoke here and there .. like this morning with my coffee.. something about coffee and smokes just go together but not for me anymore.. I think I told you guys I was quit for about a year then fell off the wagon and had been smoking the last four to five months but not near as much as I used to smoke.. anyway I had to get my resolve up again and quit again for one thing I can't afford it .. it's five bucks a pack in the USA or more.. where I live anyway.. I hear their ten bucks a pack in New York city.  anyway either I'm a smoker or not and when I smoke its' one and half to two packs a day.. and that runs into some serious cash.. I do not want to smoke .. do not like the smell.. the damage or cost or anything about smoking but it's such a darn hard but not impossible to quit addiction.  Buy god I'll keep quit this time .. I found this time harder than when a quit about a year and a ahalf ago.. I was mentatally preared to quit that time and this time I was not I just knew I Had to quit again and well really did not want to deep in my heart I wanted to be able to smoke.. but.. I have to quit one thing is I"m in first stages COPD..have a stroke history and well smoking I want to live for my grandkids and my kids sake.. I do not want to be hooked to oxygen like my grandma was unti she died from emphasema.. I do not want any part of it but I miss it terribly.. I keep thinking last few days hedre and there I could go to the E cigerette.. but thats not what I want to do .. I do not want to trade one habit for another costly habit ..my daughter has and I've pleaded for her to get off the electronic smokes because they are not good for you either .. lung wise.. but she's at least off the regular smokes.. I miss that feeling of filling up your lungs with smoke then exhaling it .. its' soothing.. and I'm a bundle of nerves these days as my son and his son who I've taken care of since he was ten months old is moving to Florida.. the job he just can't refuse.. I know that too.. but it's going to be hard he bought the house right next door to us and now he's leaving to go to Florida for good and I'll have his son until he gets settled but then he's going to come get him that child and my son is my life pretty much and I'm going to miss them so much.. I know I'll probably wind up moving down there but their is much for me to do before that can happen.. I want to make sure this job thing works out for my son as well before I pull up stakes sell my house and all.. and at my age I put moving up there like a hole in my head .. and stress for me is a big trigger to smoke but so far I'm doing good and when the nico demon gets in my head trying to justify having a cigerette I run and go NO NO NO .. I can't I've already been to the party that just one will not hurt if I do that I will be smoking again.. I know it so no I can't have even a drag on one.. remember that guys that are quit .. don't think you can have even so much of a hit .. run.. Well you guys have a good day and thank you so much for being supportive of a girl from the USA.. well there is a USA chanix support board but its full of nasty trolls driving you crazy and saying nasty things to you.. so I I wanted a good support group anywhere I could get rid of the trolls.. hope you don't mind a USa girl in you mist.. I'll be checking in and all .. and its so nice to get the support in my email. it makes the day staying quit easier.. and keeps me on track.. Have a good day