Stubbed out!
Hi, why should today be any different from the other days that I have tried to stop but only to relapse again? I don't know but I know I want to keep trying and this time, perhaps it's time that I can stop. Called Quitline yesterday, had a frank chat with my sponsor (boss) who actually busted me smoking, and being one that never really cared what others think about my choices, I actually surprised myself that I felt a pang of guilt.
I don't like smoking but I've succumbed due to stress. I don't crave it but I like what it does to distract me when I get pulled in multiple directions. I want to quit because I don't like it. I will keep saying this over and over again. I have chosen to go cold turkey with no patches. I want to kick myself up to pick up the momentum but also try to remember to be kind to myself.
I want to be able to sing without clearing my throat. I want to be able to run up that hill without feeling like a failure. I want to be able to clean 50KG in my hang power jerk without doubt. I want my body to start performing at its optimum level again.
Thanks for listening.
Day One (and counting!)
Try to keep up a positive frame of mind and it will happen. Good luck you CAN do it!
Hi VivienQ Just keep reminding yourself what you love about not smoking. I do it every single day and the it helps so much. Stay strong - you can do it.
T x
Thanks so much for your support! I've just gone through the whole day without it, and it's been a hard day at work, I am "noticing" smokers a lot more acutely now and got slammed with some news that I'm feeling a tad sooky now plus can't wait to get over my exam stress by tomorrow night. So to say I am restless is definitely accurate! I felt a weak moment there but I just pushed the thought and let it passed. Concentrate on the music in my car, think about the workout tonight and rest. Another day, I'll make it to tomorrow morning. I will.
Hi VivienQ, well done on day one...wish you many many more... stay strong....