Odyssey part 3
It has been a long day my friends, feeling restless, annoyed and basically like smoking.... am determined not to give in. Day 9 today so I don't want to undo what I have begun. I truly believe it is the best gift you could ever give yourself. Freedom from smoking addiction. I like how I am reminded of my childhood because I can smell again, I like when my four year old says 'you smell beautiful mummy', I like not having to waste money on a pursuit that is effectively killing me slowly. I have also decided to go cold turkey from today which is why I feel more irritable. I have a memory from when I was six years old I am sitting on my mothers lap whilst she is smoking and talking with friends. She is relaxed and happy and I love how she is warm and beautiful. I bend down and reach with my mouth towards her cigarette, she pulls the smoke away and giggles,' no' she says. Her friends laugh as well and I am confused........
Know what you mean pretty girl, had like the worst day today since I quit, am on day 18 and could have so easily brought a packet and smoked the lot. Well today's almost over and tomorrow can only be better!!
Stick with it... 9 days is a lot of days when you are just starting...
Think of your 4 year old boy and how his Mum will be around a lot longer if you stay quit. That helps me a lot with my 4 year old daughter.
Good luck !!!
Keep going pretty girl you are so good, sometimes its one hour at a time!! stay determined!!