Day 1

6:15 am I've put out my last cigarette :D  Im not sure which number attempt this is but I know this time I'm going to do it.  None of us really need to be reminded of the massive health risks in continuing to smoke & i'm pretty sure we all just exercise great powers to ignore them or say they will happen to someone else. But I had a massive wake up call.  I have four children ranging from 21 years to 7 years.  I was watching a TV program about weddings with my 7 year & she decided she would 'plan' her wedding.  It was all very cute until she turned to me very seriously & said 'Mummy, I want to get married when I'm 21.  Will you stilll be alive then?'  All of us who have kids will tell anyone who will listen that we would die for our children in a heart beat.  But I think it's braver to make the decision to live for them.  To live a wonderful healthy, addiction free life.  I'm done.  I am a non-smoker.  I'm ready to live.  I'm ready to enjoy my children growing up, getting married & make wonderful lives for themselves.  I'm ready for them to be proud of me & not be frighten I'm not going to be there for them.  Because I definetly will be.