Good things happen
It's now been 73 days & over $1,000 (wish I'd put that money in a jar like I intended).
74 days ago I had no idea I was about to change my life for good. I hated so many things. I felt sorry for myself I guess. My skin was dull, teeth never white, eyes didn't sparkle, mouth was like a cats bum (wrinkly that is), always running out of money, stinky, always making sure I had ciggies on me & that I would be able to have one where ever we went. etc. You all know what I'm saying. 73 days ago I realised no-one but me could get me out of this shit.
As the weeks went on I felt amazing. I could breathe, smell, sit still, the list goes on. And I felt stronger. To actually be able to beat something like this addiction is almost overwhelming to think about but it's happening.
Had a friend the other day (hadn't seen her for a few months) ask me if I'd been on a holiday, I looked so relaxed & healthy. Yay, finally someone noticed. I told her I'm not smoking anymore.
I used to not tell people I smoked, just slip away to have one. Now I am happy to tell people the reason I look a bit different these days is that I'm not smoking anymore. Put jeans on this morning, very tight fit! Think I'll embrace the extra padding too. Am walking most nights to try & keep that under control. Everyone around here has their Christmas lights up so it's a fantastic time to walk at night.
The annoying thing at the moment is the desire to still be able to enjoy a fag every now and then. Especially at this time of year. It shits me that I still can think this way but as rocky rush has told me - be patient.
I'm looking forward to Christmas time. We go to Melbourne for 3-4 wks as that's where all our family & lots of friends are. Only a few people know I'm not smoking so am really excited to catch up . A lot of them will be amazed that me of all people has done this. Also looking forward to spending more time with the kids, going to the beach & not needing to find somewhere OK to smoke. Just can't, can't wait.
What are you all doing for Christmas? Going away?
JoC - Go you! I am so happy for you. You sound so good and so positive, and so like you are now enjoying not having a smoke - GO GO GO!
I am sure the every now and then thinking about having one goes eventually - but even if it doesn't so what? Just means you think about it fleetingly and remind youself how fab you are for quitting anyway! :)
You keep it up, you hear or I wont have you and Tiger to catch up to.
Christmas I am going down the coast to see my sisters and other halves and niece and nephews and mum and dad of course and I am going to be ever thankful that my dad is still here and it is going to be very family orientated and nice.
And for the first time in way too long a time, I am going to not have to duck outside for a smoke post Christams dinner and be the only one yelling thorugh the door while everyone else stays in air-conditioned comfort. :)
So excited for you and Tiger. Same day and all.