Struggling
Ok now I'm wondering at what point this glorious epiphany will happen that stops me from ever wanting to smoke again? Everytime you think everything is going great it sneaks up on you, apparently according to all that medical BS, the nicotine is out of your system within so many days blah blah ..... CRAP!!! If I allegedly was craving nicotine, then wtf else am I addicted to that's driving me nuts today?
I'm fidgety, cranky, restless and I wanna belt someone and smoke a whole truckload of fags while getting extremely drunk! Tried walking, eating, drinking water, celery, grapes, mints, swearing (lotsa that), diversional therapy, bitching, visiting my most annoying clients.... nothing is working. I really don't know what to do right now, this is ridiculous, yesterday was glorious today is torturous ..... ok 2 hours then I can legitimately go to bed............. man what a life..... wishing it was bedtime.
Hope everyone else is having a better day than I am. Thanks for letting me vent.
OK so I had those days around day 16/18 and 26 and they simply sucked!!!!!So I ate a load of Darrel lea rocky road lol. I havent really had one of those days again and although occasionally I think Gees I could do with a smoke I have actually noticed that it is a thought not a feeling and very quickly can just blow it off. Dont make it worse by getting cranky because your cranky, you know you did have shit days when you were smoking to!! Not smoking can not be used as the excuse for every crappy day! Go to bed knowing that no matter what the universe throws at you, you didnt smoke and WON !!!! Keep up the GREAT work!!!
Thanks for that Tiger, much appreciated.....Ok now I'm really angry at myself for letting doubts get to me. Just found another site which may be useful to some of you, it's got some great tools on it it's called the Quit Coach, it gave me the opportunity to kick my own butt for an hour or so and now I feel stupid for letting things get to me, I now know I'm going to survive today and I have to admit I was genuinely worried for a longer period than i was comfortable with today.
Stuff the bloody fags Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... at least i'm laughing at myself again... and it feels good.
Thanks again Tiger, if I was girl I'd lend you my best frock ;oP.
Meanie completely get it. When that happened (and still happens sometimes) to me, I would think well you could have one, but then you go back to Day 1.
I woudl also remind myself that I got in bad moods and things went wrong when I smoked as well. Geez, my dad has been helpful, I can tell myself you were smoking Walker and waiting around the hospital, was it any easier because of smoking? No, in fact it meant you had to go outside off hospital grounds, battle in the wind to light it and then come back in. Smelling terrible (I now realise) hang in there.
I completely get that and you're absolutely right a cigarette ain't gonna make anything any better........... think I'll try glue sniffing instead LOL. Just kidding incase anyone didn't see the irony, last time I tried glue sniffing I had a bag stuck on my head for two weeks!