My unexpected Test
Hi Everyone,
So glad to see the site up and running again, and everyone posting stories. I didn't realise how much support you all give me and how much I rely on this forum untill I couldn't post or read anything!!
Anyway thought I'd share what happened on the weekend. I have up untill saturday night, been avoiding any place where I would be around smokers. I just felt that I wasn't yet strong enough to be in that situation. Saturday nite was a planned night out with a group of friends who are all NON Smokers. I was having an absolute ball, the food was great, the drinks were flowing and there was lot's of laughs. After dinner we decided to leave the restaraunt and head to a bar around the corner. No sooner had we all stumbled out of the restaraunt, one of the girls has pulled out a packet of smokes from her bag and said "come on girls, I bought a packet especially for tonite so we can all have a few smokes" Well shit, that through me for a sixer, what the hell??? These are all meant to be non smokers!! So the pack got handed around, and I was sooooooo very very tempted. One smoke, I could blame it on the grog the next day, what the hell hey? I grabbed the pack and then handed it on to the next person and politley refused. I couldn't believe I actually was strong enough to do it. Where the hell did that willpower come from?? Now I had to stand with them all while they puffed away and the funny thing was, I wasn't craving a smoke as such, but more envious of the fact that they could all have a night out, get drunk, have a few smokes and then not worry about smoking again, till probably the next night out. I wish I was able to do that but I know that for me it is All or nothing, so I chose Nothing.
Well I'm off to bed now to try and get some sleep. Still finding after 18 days my sleep patterns are all over the place. Good night everyone:)
Woohoo well done Roseyk, *high five, I'm VERY proud of you, sounds like you're cracked it, now all you have to do is reinforce the strength you showed, it does get easier (not much and not very quickly), I feel really proud of you, that's brilliant.
I've actually just had a couple of nights sleep, the first decent sleep for over a month, my wife bought me this ring that she heard about from someone she works with and it actually seems to work, apparently it applies pressure to pressure points in your finger... dunno could be alot of crap, but it seemed to work for me... anyway have a great day and keep patting yourself on the back, you did an amazing job and survived a big test. GO YOU!!!
Well done - HUGE effort to say no thank you. And you know what you will find it so much easier next time. And you did it with the site down. You should be very proud of yourself. Well done Roseyk