Getting There!

I have now been smoke free for 22days. Never in my adult life have I had this freedom.  I smoked a pkt/day for 25yrs. Tried over the years different ways to give up, all gave me so much anxiety that I gave in each time. Problem was I wasn't doing it for myself, I was doing it because it was the right thing to do for many reasons as you all know. I could always find a reason to go back to it - my husband smokes so they're always around, kids driving me nuts - so have a fag to calm down, dad died - need a smoke...........  I don't think I ever really wanted to change.  22 days ago I woke up, had a fag, and thought I've had enough and will try a patch, just for the day and see how I go.  I wasn't going to put any stress into it.  It wasn't too bad so I did another and another day.  I started to enjoy the willpower I was feeling, smelling good, teeth becoming whiter & having more time for my children.... I think this time I wanted to do it for MYSELF.  Patches make me itch like crazy but I can put up with that this time. "Genie Patches" have worked for me this time.

I haven't told many people what I'm doing as I haven't wanted to admit (until now) that I am smoke free.  I've tried to ignore it.  My kids know, which is just as well.  Certain times of day I struggle so they make sure they get out of my way & let me have time to do what ever I need.  Sometimes it's a whole cuppa without interruption, a walk, I sing - which definitely makes the kids disappear, I check out this site ALOT.  You guys have been fantastic support & a good laugh at times.

I'm enjoying the way I feel now and am determined to not go back.  The extra cash is pretty good too!