Try Again

My idea on going Cold Turkey has failed miserably so here I go again. I went to the chemist this morning and asked for that inhaler thingy but he'd sold out and so I took the patches instead and some gum. I have used the patches before and ended up with a nasty rash and numbness down my arm not to mention I was still an insufferable bitch to be around and couldn't get the cravings under control, but "apparently" it must have been the brand according to the pharmacist (I feel so sorry for the poor man who had to put up with my no nictotine in the system attitude problem this morning)

Anyway, I am armed with my patches. My daughter suggested substituting my addiction with another so I have bought out my local areas supply of chupa chups and have been sucking on them all day. (I find this alot more pleasent than using that horrid gum) I have some hypno dude on my Ipad that I have to listen to every day and I have set up a jar in my room with poker chips, blue representing $5 and Black representing $10 to remind me how much I save per day.

Honestly, I really hope I can do this, this time.