Screwed up
I screwed up and fell off the wagon last night and smoked whilst drinking. Feel like such a fricken idiot today😪
Faced stress and buckled, so angry and feel like a total coward. I feel like a fraud as my will power let me down.........
Thank you Robn I am crying atm as I let myself down. I feel ashamed for being so silly. Okay you are right I cant throw the towel in, new day starting over. Day 1 today and you have made me feel a bit better with your comment that nobody ever died from feeling stupid. I saved $194 for not smoking for 19 days. The stupidest part is the smoking gave me nothing for my stress and has left me feeling stupid, upset and like a fool. Squaring up my shoulders now and shaking off the shame, new day new beginnings I cant let the slip up ruin me into failure
Thank you so much Robn, Reesie & Red. Your support is giving me the strength to go on & not throw in the towel. Ahh Red a fellow bourbon drinker! I think I need to refrain from drinking until I become stronger as it seems to bring me unstuck. I keep reminding myself of all the reasons why I want to quit and cant think of one reason to smoke. Thanks guys i enjoy this web site a lot and i do draw strength from the great support and understanding as we can relate & i love reading all the stories. Let's me know I'm not alone