149 days in

I havent been here for a little while, I am now 149 days NOT smoking and hardly think of it at all, sometime I do and yes I want one but I dont want one at the same time, the thought of lighting up now does turn me off.

I am not using any supports now and am feeling great with being able to recover from illness and my brain op quicker then I would have if I smoked. I f I was still smoking when the op happened to tell you the truth..... I dont think I would be here or be here in this function.

I cant stress enough that by giving up and staying quit I would not be able to type this or be recouperating the way I have been, so please think about your quitting as we get older it is harder to do anything and it also goes for getting better when sick or need operations let alone trying to fight cravings too boot.

My journey has not been easy, nothing worth it never is. The pain of giving up is only the body punishing me for put it through all that gruelling neglect over many years and I deserved it so tha I amy NEVER put it though that again.... a reminder not to .

This is only my journey.

I am recouperating slowly but could have been quicker if I had never smoked. I look back I am proud of not giving in and looking forward to a better healthier life.

Thanks for your support, I am still popping in to see how you are all going and just remember once a smoker always a smoker dont even have a puff or it will grab you again.

PS My husband has emphysema and asbestosis his decision to keep smoking has been devastating to watch, something that no one should ever need to go through. Please dont make the same devastating decision. Stop giving in to your minds manipulation you are stronger then that and there is light at the end of that tunnel and no its not a train xxoxoxoxox you are worth it.