2 and a bit months on
I knew that smoking was killing me and making me ill. Ihad the flu a couple of months ago back in May. I went outside to have a smoke and I nearly choked to death. That was it, no more. I have wanted to quit again for a while now but I have never been this definate before. This is my 4th attempt and my last. I have rashes, blood poisenings and other things happening to my body and being in my 60's now I thought it time for me and this is my first step. I could only do it for me, I have been told, I have been asked etc etc but it just had to be me wanting this for me, noone else.
It has been an up and down journey to date. I have cleaned up my garden,pruned lots of trees, cleaned up the chook shed, yes I live on a rural property.
At present I am doing it tough. I do not have a reason to get out of bed so i am just going with it, feel like this is probably part of my journey. I have also go big family emotions happening at the moment and have only thought of having a smoke a couple of times. I am going through so much, I put this bluntly, S##T at the moment I would be an idiot to start.
I have my rolly packet and my favourite lighter still sitting under the TV where I last rolled a cigarette. I still have the new packet that I had bought only a couple of days before, this is stashed in my room and I have a used packet in the car. By having these I know I can have a smoke when and wherever I want to. I guess they are my safety shoots.
I have gone through cravings, I am now crying at the drop of a hat but hopefully I will get to the next door very soon I am hoping. My partner has not killed me yet as I am not like I was once before when I quit. I was just horrible back then. Anyway that is it to date, 2 months ago on the 3rd of May 2013 I gave up
Hey Suse,well done to you. 2 months is a great achievement. Perhaps now you should chuck out those rolly packets as you are well on the way to being a non smoker :)
Well done Suse, 2 months, wow thats great ( im also 2 months smokefree). Yes think you can safely throw those safe packets of smokes away.You dont need them anymore because YOU DONT SMOKE.... well done, you dont need anything anymore, if you can make it 2 months, You know deep inside you dont need to smoke anymore... keep it up and enjoy your property and your chooks xoxo
Wow that's great! I'm only into day 3 - seeing other people doing so well is inspirational!
Well done Suse, you have come so far and are doing so well. You should treat yourself to something nice. Throw away smokes you do not need them , you have proved that you are a non smoker 2 months now. I cry at the drop of a hat too, by week 2/3/4 I was like that did not want to go out staying in bed, but it does ease off,it is part of the journey. Keep the focus , it will all pass on. Keep posting and well done.
Hey Suse you are a legend in my mind. Life deals us Sh@T whether we smoke or not and from experience lighting up again does not remove the other issues it just makes them worse as you then feel you have failed something else. Keep up the good work and throw the ciggies away and treat yourself a nice massage or something else personal.
Thank you for all your encouraging comments, gives me a lot of hope. It is hard when you live in the great high country, 23 klms from town, 55 klms from the doctors, and 170klms from nearest regional centre. This is why I joined on line so that I can talk with people in the same situation as myself. I cannot just hop in the car and drive, have to think of the cost and we do not have a support group up here. The nearest is the 170 klms. So my dear friends we will all work together to achieve our goal together, ye ha xxxxx