Day 62 I am Very Sick

Today is day 62 for me I nver thought I would get this far after all my failed attempts the longest I ever went before this was two to three days then back to my old smoking habits again... This time I am using Nicobate it has helped me a lot but for two weeks I have had dreadful stomach pain I have even now udnergone tests as something not right, not just that but I am making matters worse as I still crave to smoke and this causing more nerves in my stomach making me feel worse.. I am pretty messed up now because I am blaming not smoking to be the cause of my chronic stomach aliment this is what my brain keeps feeding me (if you smoke you will not be sick anymore) feels like I am going crazy... Not smoking is the best thing anyone can do and I know this to be true it is just now I am blaming not smoking on my illness I can not even go to the gym now until I get all my results back from these tests.... Feeling so down of late my friends :( ( (