Day 4 and I slipped.....
Hi Guys,
Amazingly after last night I did not give in and have a smoke. It was actually late this afternoon when I gave in. I have no excuse for it but what I can say is that the lonliness crept in and I let the cigarette in too. I have no one I know to talk to at the moment so that's how I feel at home - alone.
I hope I haven't disappointed some of you. For myself, I can also say something that surprised me is I could actually taste the horrible thing! I haven't completely tasted the whole disgusting cigarette since the first time I started....it must be because I haven't been smoking and some of my taste buds/smell have come back. And when I finished it, I was actually horrified in it. I felt like I had just emptied an ash tray into my mouth (which is what it is really) and I came straight inside to brush my teeth, wash my hands and spray perfume on myself. I still feel like it's in my mouth.... so in one way for me, this is a bit positive. In the fact, It turned me off. I know in one way this is a failure but in another light I am looking at myself saying, "Hey, you've gotten this far, don't let one cigarette get you down." I'm definately not perfect and I didn't even think I could make it a day let alone nearly 4! It's also a learning tool for me. I know I need a better back up plan for my stress/feeling down that's for sure.
So I definately haven't given up, this has been a hiccup along the way.
I hope everyone has had a great weekend.
Don't give up Adelle! So you had 1 ciggie, pfft!! Get back on the horse (so to speak) Day 20 for me today, & if i can do it! So can you. I am 45 & have been smoking since I was 16 :( It's so hard but don't give up. Day 4 was also really hard for me too. don't worry about disappointing anyone on here, we're all going through the same thing. Hate that you feel so alone. Are you on Facebook? if it would help add me. Margaret cerff. Good luck Adelle. I'll be looking out for your updates.
Don't get down about it Adelle - the voice beat you this once - but you'll know next time it tries to trick you. So what are you thinking? Still on the giving up horse or been thrown and have another attempt some time in the future?
Yep, you can add me too Adelle, and anyone else going through this- but you'll never find me - name is Michael Jones LOL. went to St francis Xaviers college. I think that is how you might narrow me down.
Hey I just wanted to jump on here quickly to thank you guys so much again for your awesome support! I am very busy at the moment and am going through quite a difficult time including allot of changes whilst still having to set myself into gear for work/study. When this settles down I will be back on here and add you on facebook. I have decided to set another quit date as at the moment too much is going on in my life. I have not given up though. Talk to you all soon :-)
You're all so awesome! Thanks again Ican. Good for you! I'm so happy for you :-) Thanks so much for thinking of me, so sweet of you! I know I can too and you're right. I hope you tell yourself the same thing as I'm sure you do! xoxoxoxox I'm just finished my 2nd day, 3rd night :-)