Still crazy after 8 weeks!

FIFTY BLOODY SIX days without a fag!!!!!!!!!! If someone had told me I could ever say that eight weeks ago I'd have laughed at 'em. Well here I am, still got all my fingernails, dunno about all my faculties though. This journey has sucked like the suckiest thing ever invented in Suckland on National suck day, but I think I've just about made it.... had a few weeks of being really busy and feeling pretty down, that's why I've not been here, but I have been checking up on everyone and I have to say I'm pretty impressed that everyone is still going well.

This week has been a weird one, I've realised that smoking really doesn't bother me anymore, spent alot of time with smokers, spent alot less time focussing on anything that reminds me what a disgusting, filthy and unhealthy habit smoking is, I wouldn't even say that I've dropped my guard I just regret ever starting to smoke in the first place, who knows maybe I'd be rich by now (not likely, probably have been a screaming alcoholic instead).

Thanks also to whoever it was that recommended the Allan Carr thing at some point over the last week or so..... because I'm a lazy sod I downloaded the audiobook, wasn't gonna do all the readin' n stuff..... anyway long story short, I've no idea how good it would be from the perspective of trying to give up..... but it's brilliant for drumming it in what a dipstick you are for smoking, even found myself talking to the narrator at some points, almost evangelistic with the 'Hell Yeah's' (not really that dramatic) but I would recommend it from the positive reinforcement perspective, for anyone who's interested I found it in PDF, audiobook and CD Rom versions and downloaded the lot, just because I could really (I fully intend to keep some kind of armoury just incase I ever do get tempted).

Anyway folks it's the last day of work, busy day making sure everone's still breathing and checking to make sure they'll survive until after christmas, off to QLD tomorrow. I wish you all a wonderful and safe and smoke free Christmas and thank you all for being the rocks that you all are and I know in my heart I'd never have made it without you lot, even though I wouldn't know any of you from a bar of soap you all have a special place in my life.

Special thanks also to Tiger for the 'Where the hell are you!' message.