70 Days Tomorrow - 10 Weeks

Morning

Well I woke up this morning on the eve of 10 weeks completely and utterly bewildered.  After all this time and doing it a lot easier (not easy) over the last number of weeks and not really thinking about the dreaded ciggies much.  I had been dreaming about smokes and it was so real.

In my dream, I had people over and walked away as bold as you please and lit up down the hallway.  This is funny as when I smoked I never smoked in the house, so I shoudl have realised it was a dream at that point.  Anyway, in my dream I realised that visitors may see me smoking and so I ran to the bathroom with my smoke (and ashtray - although it was an ashtray I had never seen before) and turned on the shower and the exhaust fan - so nobody would know I was sneaking a ciggie.

Then in my dream i Was watching myself in the mirror smoking and thinking to myself, yeah that is more you - you might as well face it, you are a smoker and you are not going to win, so just go out there and tell your visitors you are smoking again you gave it a good shake.

But my dream was not finished, I decided I would not tell people and then I could sneak them for the rest of my life.  I have no idea when I left the bathroom, what I did with the ashtry etc etc etc.  As the alarm went off.

So, obviously I realised it was a dream, got up and as it's Thursday swam tehn got ready for work.  At teh bus stop I was thinking about my dream and I could taste cigarette in my mouth.  I was standing there thinking did I not dream it?  Did I get up in the night and sneak one in the bathroom?  (This would be difficult as there are none in he house).  Did I have one or did I not?

So I am not sure what the dream meant, I am not sure where it came from.  I stopped dreaming about smoking weeks ago.  Maybe it was because when I went to bed I was thinking to myself, wow Friday is 10 weeks!

The bottom line is, I do not want to be a smoker, I do not want to look in teh mirror and see myself holding a ciggie, so I choose not too and will continue to choose not too.  I just do not want to have a dream like that again.

Wish I could dream about a massive chocolate cake and wake up and have that taste in my mouth!

End of Winners bizarre dream.  Have a good day and hoory for 10 weeks (tomorrow).