6 Weeks Today!

Well, well, well who would have thought I would make 6 weeks.  I must say at the begining I was not confident in myself.  Now I am more than confident - hooray!

Funny though, I thought by now I would 'feel' different.  But if I am honest with myself aside from having supersonic sense of smell (I can smell a ciggie at 1km away) and not puffing if I run for the bus, I can't say I feel that different.  Maybe that will come when I start running and swimming again.  This is planned for Monday after catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror yesterday and discovering I had a fat back (how does that happen)??  I think even my wrists have put on weight!!!!!!!!

But, it's not a day to think about negatives - 6 weeks without one puff and been in some pretty stressful situations and some pretty dangerous (as in other smokers) social situations and been smashed at least once in the 6 weeks and have not faltered - so I am high fiving myself :).

A little part of me still feels a bit lost and like I am not really me, maybe because I smoked for 20 plus years?  And so I need to start to be able to see me as me without smokes.  So that is the plan moving forward from the 6 week mark - to have  a mind set of I am still the same big lug with the same warped sense of humour and same mates and family it's just I don't have a filthy habit anymore!

Right that is done!  And according to my calculator here, I have saved $631.68 not sure where it is.  (I think I may have eaten it).  But yay for not paying to contribute to a silly habit.  I know that is what it was, as I was not really enjoying it for about a year prior to quitting.  Felt a bit like a slave to it.  Well take that smokes - 6 weeks.

I still sometimes feel like I have forgotten something when I leave the house, you know the old check, wallet, keys, phone, smokes.  Guessing that is pretty normal I mean I have been doing that check daily for a long time.  I now go wallet, keys, phone, uhm - nope nothing else.  And last night I had to light a mosquito coil for the balcony before firing up the BBQ and I had thrown out all the lighters - lol.  So it was a dash across the road for a packet of matches.

Anyway, I am a rambling I am PROUD of myself and I will continue to not have a smoke and I know I can do it - I just for some reason thought I would be jumping for joy by now.  I guess in the 6 weeks I have had days where I have felt mega-happy, mega-proud, mega-excited etc (like after the Melbourne Cup) when I did it and was at the races and was drinking and did not smoke. So maybe my lack of excitement at 6 weeks is that it is now becoming my norm???

Anyway happy Friday all.  Remember to have a minutes silence at 11am.  Which weirdly will be 11am on 11/11/11.

Keep going all and thank you to each and everyone of you who have kept me on the road to non smoker and kept me laughing and kept me in the knowledge that I was not going mad that others too were going through the same thing.  You are all awesome!