30 DAYS what a ride
It has now been 30 days for me being a non smoker. It's been a wild ride. I still have not told my family i have decided to tell them christmas day. I'm still having moments at the most unexpected times to get cravings. I am also still struggling with what to do when i'm waiting and have spare time on my hands.
I hope my Dad is proud of me as he has been my inspiration, he has now been gone 3 1/2 months. He came to see me in hospital once just to offer his support when no one else would. I had a severe asthma attack which everyone blamed on my smoking so they wouldn't come saying it was self inflicted. Dad understood. he smoked for 30 years and it got him in the end taking him to the grave. I havn't grieved for him yet as i felt guilty for still smoking while i watched him die. I'm crying now and i feel ready to deal with it . I was feeling disrespectfull to dad for still smoking but now that part of my life has gone,i can move forward.
* Big hug to Kathyrose and Roseyk* I think we should all be proud of ourselves and each other, there's a sense of community here which has turned all of the potential negativity into a strength, we've dug in and helped each other through some of the toughest times.
Kathyrose.... if there's one thing that you're not it's disrespectful, smoking has been a part of us for a long time, there should be no regrets about giving up, fighting hard to survive while we're doing it, continuing to smoke when others are sick, falling off the wagon and having one, be positive about what you're doing and when you're doing it is irrelevant, the fact is that you ARE doing it and I'm sure that anyone, whether they're near to your heart or not would respect you for that.
Congrats on the big 30 keep going strong ;o)
Kathyrose cheers to you for 30 days and I bet you your dad is proud as punch and willing you to succeed. We want you to succeed too. And I completely get the inspiration bit. Dad was mine also, I am just lucky and thankful he is still here. So I will with your permission tell my dad when I see him at Christmas he needs to be proud of you as well :) He has already said to me on numerous ocassions good on ya mate for giving up. So I am sure he would be happy to share a good on ya love with you!
A month Kathyrose - that is not to be sneezed at well done. And just keep going one day at a time :)
Thanks everyone. It's an easier road to travel when you are not alone. My love to you all. Winnie walker you made me cry by saying your Dad would be proud of me as well. wow
Everyone who finds out about me is over the moon... And I admit I love the great comments I get, but the most important person to impress is yourself. Kathyrose, 30 days is bloody awesome!