Getting through the anxious days

I tried to stop smoking by doing it myself & with the aid of Nicobate lozenges. What a week! First I got a rash on my chest that I couldn't get rid of, it was super hot the week of the 1st Feb. Thursday night I dropped a microwave meal on my foot & got 2nd degree burns. The day before I hadn't had a ciggarette but after burning my foot I rushed out, bought ciggarettes, a bag of lollies & smoked 2 ciggarettes one after the other & ate most of the lollies. I felt bad but then I remembered that I hadn't started taking champix yet. Started taking that on Saturday 5th Feb & was down to smoking 2-3 ciggarettes a day & not feeling too guilty. I was also chewing the lozenges if the urge to smoke hit me in the morning cos I'd decided I wasn't going to have a cig until after 4pm. On Saturday 12th Feb started on week 2 & had 2 cigs that day which tasted weird & I couldn't believe I wasn't enjoying them. Yesterday, Sunday 13th Feb I had 1/2 a cig & it tasted like nothing & I couldn't believe the enjoyment had gone. I felt lost as I now have 2 hours to waste a day when I once spent them smoking. The anxious feeling lasted the first 10 days & I felt really weird. I had trouble sleeping, had weird dreams that I would wake up from & realize they weren't real. I felt all edgy & felt like I'd lost something. But I was determined not to give in. I can't believe how I feel-it's like I never smoked. I've even got money in my account after the weekend. I must admit I ate 5 bags of lollies on the weekend but I did 2 hours of walking to make up for it. The morning cough has gone-pleased about that. I guess it's cos this time I wanted to do it for myself whereas other times it's been cos someone hassled me or bet me that I couldn't give up & I really didn't want to give up. I guess if cigs had been $5 a packet I might still be smoking. It was the cost in the end that really hit me cos I seemed to be always broke. Since I've announced that I'm giving up I've found out lots of people who used champix & were successful. I did manage to lose 7kg before I decided I'd give up. So far I've gained 1 1/2 kilos but I'm not going to let that phase me.