Please help with any advice or encouragement 🙏

Today was supposed to be day 1, going cold turkey but I failed...

I have stage 4 endometriosis and adenomyosis and I am a single mum to 5 year old twin boys with no support...

I had tried champix about 6 months ago but it put me into a mass depression, I already have depression and anxiety with PTSD which I am medicated for but this experience was absolutely awful... 

I need to do this for my health, my finances and my boys and honestly I am just over smoking, I am 38 and have been smoking for 25 years which should be reason enough...

I purchased a quit it inhaler but I was in a lot of pain with my endometriosis today and quickly gave in to my cravings a handful of times...

I am scared I am not strong enough to achieve this but in my heart I want to quit so badly...

Please help with any advice and or encouragement because God knows I need it🙏🙏🙏🚭