Need some help please.

I am glad that you joined us. I found a forum to be the ticket to freedom, as I began to actually believe that even I could quit after 40 + years. Read and learn. Understanding and a change of thinking are great tools to assist in undergoing this wonderful change. Embrace it and look at the positives, rather than the negatives. We did it and now you will too. Congratulations on taking the first steps to freedom. Stick with it and you too will be a winner!