Can't seem to get started
I made an original quit date of 2 September. But then I realised it was Father's Day, and I decided I couldn't quit on a day I would need to visit my dad. So then I decided I would try and quit the next weekend. Only I had no idea what to do with myself. And I'd planned all these craft activities, but couldn't do them due to pain. (I have a sore neck and damaged nerves, which makes a lot of things painful.)
And I can go for 4-5 hours at work without having one, and have reduced my craving when I do get to have one. But if I'm at start, I seem to find it really hard just to start the process - or even go a long time without one. I'll have one and then say I won't have another for at least two hours. But 30 minutes later, I decide just one more, and then I won't have one for at least two hours.
Another thing that happened on Sunday was my plan was to wake up and not smoke. But then I decided the first smoke of the day was the hardest one to go without. And then once I had that one, I thought, well I may as well have another one. And it just went on from there.
I really want to quit. And I believe I'll be fine if I can just get over the first hurdle. Just need to work out what to do with myself beforehand (that I can actually do and won't cause me pain).
I have been in that situation, there's no good time to quit! I could always figure a way to postpone quitting, make a date and stick with it. I wish you the best of luck, Historylass. I am at 81 days today without any aids of any kind- "cold-turkey." The first week was the hardest, then it was the filling the high risk times of day for me, like the first morning smoke with coffee, the after meal smoke, the stress relief smoke, etc.... Finding a way to fill these times with a different routine.
I swear by Alan Carr's easiway as a way to get yourself started. You can either buy the book or download the ausio book or both. It has been very helpful for me to dispel the fears that we have that stop us from escaping from this dreadful addiction.
I have listened to the audio book several times. Hopefully I've got it this time. The rewards are enormous.