Just starting again after 20+ failed attempts

I'm writing this as a sort of future manifesto for myself as well as others. I've had so many failed quit attempts, I stopped counting after 20. I'd google, "Quitting after lots of failed attempts" and would seldom find any results. It seemed as though people just give up after a certain number of attempts.

However, I know that this is a way for me to "breakthrough" some of the anxiety I have been experiencing because it in itself is a trigger for anxiety.

I figured, eventually, that there must be something wrong with my long-term planning ability, although I managed to reach a B1 level in German through practising every day. I also managed to learn python for my Master's program before the program starts by setting up a schedule. I am now learning a fourth language, with a translation career running, and it seemed like SMOKING was the only thing I could not plan long-term.

It seemed so ironic that I could do things and stick to them - sports, fitness, food, education, learning new languages, etc... but never for smoking.

Now I realize that it's maybe because smoking is like something being "taken away" rather than "added" to my life.

I really hope it goes well on days 1, 3, 4, and 7 because those are usually the toughest for me.

Good luck for anyone quitting soon as well.