10th Time is a charm

I'm 27 days clean today and did it cold turkey. It was a process of trying over and over again, sometimes multiple times a week. Finally, one day I decided to accept that it was going to be hard no matter what I did: i would get angry; I would have cravings; I would have anxiety; I would have all the symptoms and would just have to deal with them as they came. So that's what I did. Every time I wanted a cigarette, I told myself I was having a craving and I could wait until some time in the next few minutes or hours and then have one if I still wanted it. I just kept doing that. I slept a lot the first week as well. It's been a rollercoaster ride so far of emotions, but I accept that they are normal and I don't need to fight them. When I get angry for no reason, I tell myself, "It's the nicotine". When I get anxious or depressed, "It's ok, it's the nicotine, it will pass." And so far it has worked.