Day 1
Today is day 1 of my quit. It feels different than all of my previous attempts. I am 46 years old and other than the year and a half I quit using Allen Carr's book I have been smoking a pack a day since I was 20.
I have hated myself for smoking, learned to accept that self-hatred, and then learned to moved past that self-hatred. I have taught my children to be okay with my smoking because I have convinced them that it is my choice what I do with my body. I have even gone as far as saying that "death is inevitable and they shouldn't worry about the consequences of my choices" What a croc of s*&t...I am one of the most loving, caring, generous, controlling, delusional people I know. I know that my nature may not change from this quit but I also know that some of my hypocrisy might be alleviated.
The one time in my life I did quit for a year and a half I saw huge gains in my ability to succeed. I would label it as one of the most successful periods of my adult life. I didn't see it when I was living it though and snuck a cigarette from my brothers pocket thinking that I had overcome this disgusting addiction. 15 years and several short lived attempts later I find myself here on day 1 of my current quit...This one feels different though and I can sense that a change is coming.
Thank you for all of your honesty and vulnerability in sharing your stories. I would appreciate your words of encouragement to help me fulfill this need.
Good start. I used to feel the same way as you. I already told my family to bury me with a pack of cigarette and a lighter so I don't waste time in heaven looking for tobacco shop. I used to tell religious people I don't want to go to heaven if we cannot smoke there... until I was forced to be next to my dying childhood friend, a die hard smoker like me, passed away some two weeks ago. The day before he died we promised we will quit smoking when we go out out of the hospital. He did not make it though. I keep my promises. Today is my ninth day. Lots of changes, lots of miracles are happening to my body and my health. Please 1 will be 111. Keep it up! Don't slip up. You are far more stronger than the smoke.
Hi ! Thank you for being stopped! Because I know ... We know ... that we are not alone in beating this monster :-)
I promise you ... , me ..., not to smoke today. When it is difficult I breath in and out. Mostly it wil take 3 minutes and than the monster is gone for a while. It wil be smaller smaller and smaller ..
You can do this!
Succes!!