It's time to quit and be honest!

Ok I have made it here! Big step for me, normally just a thought rather than a action.

I'm here to quit as well as be honest with myself and my journey so I can be heard and held accountable for my actions.

My story is, day 2 on Champix, cutting down drastically ( average about 8 a day -used to be 20 ) smoking for 18 years or so, married to a non smoker ( who hates it but graciously accepts it ) I'm a bit of a closet smoker, almost all of my family and friends don't know that I smoke.

I am ashamed of it as it is not socially acceptable anymore and I'm not proud of it as most think I quit at some point ( mostly when I'm pregnant )

3 pregnancies and every time I all but quit ( although my husband thought I had each time ) I'm now back to about 20 a day and have really had enough!!! The cost and financial situation, my health and wanting to be there for my girls and intimacy with my husband ( he struggles with being close to me as the smell makes him sick ) are my motivating factors.

As I said not many know I smoke so there will be few that understand the quitting process. I am also not admitting as yet to those who know that I'm on this journey to be free of smokes until I can prove to myself I CAN! I need to do this on my own for the first bit without being judged by those closest to me. I'm here to get the support from this community and have a outlet and distraction from the cravings and withdrawals. I look forward to reading others stories and tips.

Nice to meet you all and good luck to everyone on their own journey.🙂